spring

Well its officially spring, and I'm not sure I did everything I wanted to do this winter. I didn't go snowboarding enough, I didn't build a quinzee, I didn't go skating enough, and I didn't go ice fishing enough.

God sometimes has weird timing, actually most of the time he doesn't answer us right aways when we pray for guidance. Enlightenment sometimes comes to us when we least expect it. But heres a funny story for you, I was at saturate(big youth/young adult praise and worship shindig) last night and here was this guy from camp(bcbc) standing right next to me and I, for the life of me couldn't remember what his name was. Names were going thought my head, Kevin, Kyle, James,Rick,etc. and I was crossing them all off. So I was like "God, it would be really cool if you could tell me his name". I keep on thinking of names, and faces, none of them were right. so finally I just sort of forgot about it, and was listening to the speaker talk. And he was kinda talking about how we should live our whole lives for Jesus and thats when he kept repeating "we are tired of our relationship with god being lukewarm" and the second time it hit me. ITS LUKE!
so I started talking to him, don't think he remembered my name but I didn't expect him to.

well thats all the time i have to post so i just thought that was a cool little moment, showed me how God can show you stuff.

one of those blah days

Well today I woke up, generally not feeling very good, body sore and stomach not feeling good . So I turned off my alarm, and rolled over and slept until like 1130. At this point I decided to write the whole day off. Now if my mom was home I probably would have gone to school, because I wast really all that sick. But today hasn't been a very good day.
And I know it hasn't been a very good day for some people who I know. Life on earth is fragile, so be ready for life after earth.
These days it seems like my prayer list is getting longer and longer, and quite frankly its kinda hard to see hope through it all, but hope is still there.
I feel so weak; I wish I could be in control of everything and not have bad things happen to good people, I wish that people wouldn't die without knowing Christ,I wish that people wouldn't be in the cycle of addiction, I wish that children wouldn't have to be abused in there homes, I wish that this world would be perfect in every way, and struggle with the concept of it not being this way because all of this could happen at the sound of gods voice.

this is sort of a tangent... one of the pastors of my church just phoned and asked me how I was doing, and I said good. and I do this all the time, people ask me how I'm doing, and I just say good without thinking of how I really am and saying what is really on my heart and thats a problem I have with myself. I thinking that maybe I'm just trying to put up a front, or it could just be out of repetition... I don't know that was just kinda on my mind

I find myself listening to a lot of "as cities burn" lately, the lyrics and music is so passionate and it gives me hope

well I'm going to go
all of the blogs on the right side have prayer requests so read them and pray
sincerely
chad

ok I lied! more non topic rambles

It seems like I don't have it in me lately to write a long in depth post(not that I've ever really had it in me), but I do like sharing little tidbits of my life and sharing some small ideas. So I will continue to do so.

Its funny how much effort I have to put into writing with capitals and punctuation. I guess I spend too much time on msn, and type like I'm in a conversation. But I'm going to try to go through this post with proper sentences.

Me and my brother seem to be bacheloring it up with our parents gone. We went grocery shopping the other day(Kurtis has to pay for groceries while my parents are gone instead of paying rent), and we bought like 15 cans of chunky soup, a bunch of sandwich meat, pudding, and popsicles... haha
While I type Kurtis is making a big pot of curry, which smells good. On the subject of curry and my brother, my brother has some ideas for our trip to India next January. His new plans are to
-get a cheap flight to London
-get a even cheaper flight from London to Salzburg
-take a train from Salzburg to somewhere in southern china
-find a way to travel from southern china to India probably another train

Now this will cost more so I don't know how he expects me to have the cash especially after spending a month at camp. Which is a thing he doesn't really understand why I need to be at so badly, because hes not really into camp I guess.
I'm really pumped for camp this year.

I have Africa on my heart, and I have a opportunity to go this fall, but I'm uncertain at the moment.(and not entirely sure what this group is doing in Africa) I think I'm going to try to sponsor a kid.

Jonah, my associate pastors son, 5 years old, has a white blood disorder (not cancerous) (in his chest?). I'm not sure on all the details but they wont have to do anything unless it spreads. Keep him in your prayers.

The other day I found myself hitting repeat on the song praise you in this storm by casting crowns, and just prayed for like half an hour especially praying for all the people who I know who are affected by cancer and who are sick right now. Sadly its a pretty long list, but I guess we got to trust god. He knows what hes doing, even when it seems like it doesn't make sense.

Me and Breton finally are starting up bible study at our school, which I think will be good for me even if no-one shows up like before our little break. Part of me is scared that people will show and I wont be prepared for it thought haha

I have a bunch of other stuff I want to talk about but I think ill leave it at this for now.
God is love, and love is real!
Chadwick

not a very faithful blogger

well it seems like i don't blog as much as i want haha, i have lots of thoughts and loads of stuff is happening but im not a very motivated person at times.


well my parents are in Australia, haven't heard from them yet, so I'm guessing they made it there alright. the funny thing is that they are going to be driving for a couple days in Australia... which is absolutely crazy because its like Europe everything is on the other side. prayer that they don't get them- selfs killed is needed i guess haha.

Kurtis and I have already moved all the furniture around, to the way that feels good to us.

oh and if you randomly drop by in the next couple days you may want to phone ahead or knock cause me and Kurtis like to walk around in our underwear


i might be carrying my parents cell phone for the next 3 weeks, so if you cant catch me at home the number is 782 4113

it was very nice out today, i think ill wear shorts tomorrow if its like today

this is just recent news, ill try to post a serious topic based post tomorrow haha
may god be with you
chad

am i contending for the faith? / general life

well i haven't posted in like forever... partly because ive been feeling a little overwhelmed with homework and my recent promotion at work.. but mostly because ive been feeling lazy when not studying and doing homework.

Am I contending for the faith?

lately i really feel like i haven't done enough in the name of jesus and mostly been done stuff for me and me only. sometimes i feel like i go to church on fridays and sundays and am excited about it but then the rest of the week god gets to sit in the backseat or the trunk. i get shown opportunitys to express my faith but instead i do nothing.

If you would ask most people at my school they would say i was a nice person, but only a select few know that im a Christian. When i entered high school i made some new friends, some went to elementary school with me but not middle school with me. Non believers but generally nice people, well making friends has always been kinda hard for me probably cause im quiet and seem socially retarded sometimes haha so didnt define myself as a Christian. Its not like i did the things they did like swear and party a bit, but i never said that i was against the things they were doing. they were spewing there atheist thoughts and i never said a thing. Well that summer i think i went to camp and probably reclaimed my faith in god. All was good until school started again, but then i saw what they were doing and was ashamed of myself for not defending god when i had the opportunity's so i distanced myself so i wouldnt have to be ashamed. And this is what i currently do, thought im trying to break through and have thrown alot of hints that im a Christian and some people have caught on i think so it will be a vindicating moment when everyone knows. please pray.

Mathew 25
this chapter comes to mind and sometimes i dont feel like im ready for christ to come back. I dont think that i have been waiting for him to return and have used the time ive had foolishly.

34"Then the King will say to those on his right, 'Come, you who are blessed by my Father; take your inheritance, the kingdom prepared for you since the creation of the world. 35For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, 36I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.'

i think of this verse and i think of the people who i should be helping but im so wrapped up in serving myself, though i think ive been breaking out of my selfishness

but works without faith is dead just as faith without works

i cant help but feel excited about the things god will do through me if i give him everything and hold nothing back. and i think im walking forward most days. breaking through the bondages of sin and shame that have held me back.

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General life

today i started christian life classes at church, the first step at my church for baptism, a step in my christian walk that i think is important

please pray for Earl and Ramona
and for Chantel's dad

i lost my bible sometime in the last week so if you find it return it haha

i got a promotion at work which has kinda been a little stress filled i now work build line( basicaly make pizzas and sandwiches ect) at boston pizza, and i havent learnt very fast and have screwed up a few pizzas already and am pretty slow at it even though ive been studying all the pizza lists

ive been falling behind in english class because hes been giving lots of homework and ive been lazy

tomorrow im going to go get a blood sample taken for the unrelated bone marrow registry

saturday my parents leave for australia for 3 weeks

ive been asked to go to Africa this October to help with building some buildings and i think it is something that my heart desires to do but i have three things on my schedule for this next 12 months and can only do 2 of them either camp and trip to india with my bro or camp and africa
unless i can can fund raise (not something i like doing that much) like crazy for africa

we will see what is in store for the next year

if youve read all this then thank you for caring haha
until next time
grace and peace
chad