Monday, September 21, 2009

something to take to heart

this is out of a book called "Grace for the moment" by Max Lucado, its sort of a twice daily inspirational reading. I had read this morning reading thinking that thinking that it was the current day but then after realized it was 2 months and 1 day previous, God is trying to speak to me through this, what is he telling you?

if we say we have no sin, we are fooling ourselves, and the truth is not in us 1 John 1:8

We do ourselves no favors in justifying our deeds or glossing over our sins. Some time ago my daughter Andrea got a splinter in her finger. I took her to the restroom and set out some tweezers, ointment, and a Band- Aid. She didn't like what she saw."I just want the Band-Aid, Daddy." Sometimes we are just like Andrea. We come to Christ with our sin, but all we want is a covering. We want to skip the treatment. We want to hide our sin. And one wonders if God even in his great mercy will heal what we conceal.
How can God heal what we deny? How can God touch what we cover up?

a gentle thunder

Thursday, September 17, 2009

some of my favorite lyrics. these are the words by means

the kindness of a gentle giant
what blood to shed
my blood isn't a worthy currency
truth grabs me, i become a child of your blood
ive been brought out of the grave

indirect routes, indifferent roads we travel
we walk but not alone, never alone
i wonder why im still alive, you become everything
we become so much greater, greater than the skies
what do i desire, other places

on the outside looking into frosted windows
the one who finds me whispers breath deeper
oh how far we have traveled just to feel alive
breaking down walls so we can find truth
following smoke trails to find the spark
strength finds me learning to be brave

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

summer nights

hey way ray its still summer mid september! and I'm feeling quite fine.

troubles seem to bounce away in a BIG BOUNCER and no thats not a ad for bouncing good times, we had our pioneer clubs/ ALPHA BBQ at our church last night, and im pretty sure my fire was lit strong again for these kids but not only the kids the parents as well.
things that stood out:
-single moms trying to raise there kids the best they can
-mob mentality the children take on and the good and bad side effects
-the fierce combination of kids and a giant bouncer
-the fierce combo of me and a giant bouncer
-the boys in my pioneer clubs class this year and how connected to them I feel
-how honest it felt to watch kids go up to the door of the bouncer and turn back multiple times and little by little get farther in the door until they were bouncing. a boy about 4 years old who i saw jump off a three foot retaining wall before he ventured towards the bouncer
-fresh starts

here's to a amazing fall of pioneer clubs and alpha.
let there be love!


Monday, September 14, 2009

life seems like...

a constant breaking and healing of my heart.

what breaks my heart as of late.
- seeing people. friends. struggle to the point of total hopelessness.
- watching the world fall into the traps of the enemy.
- the slavery of sex, money and everything in between.
- watching media beat worthlessness, hopelessness, false security/ identity into the minds of children
- axe commercials etc.
- alcoholism
- seeing Christians do nothing about these things
- seeing Christians run dry when the well is full
- seeing Christians so hurt yet not wanting healing
the list seems to go on....


I also see people fed up with this spiritual starvation. ready to break bread. ready to be the change. Jesus didn't come to earth for nothing, He didn't die for nothing, He didn't rise for nothing, He didn't send the Holy Spirit for nothing.

Romans 15:13

13May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.


Thursday, September 10, 2009

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

sorry im bad at blogging consistantly

ive been pretty busy lately, and surprisingly the blog in which I really in theory would LOVE to keep updated takes a hit when I dont take the time to do it. I'm pretty undisciplined when it comes to doing things everyday, other than you know going on facebook. I have realized one thing recently that there is no way im going to blog consistantly if i dont write consistantly, and so i am going to start off with a journal that I am going to write in everyday. and when I can start doing that I'm sure that the blogs will roll out, I dont think i have done a fomal blog report of st lawrence island and you know I dont want to be one of those people who talk about something in the past so much that its annoying but i want to just get one formal summary out there.

as for what the plans of my life are

1.find job, ive sent quite a few resumees out to random places and should be pretty close to getting something, there are lots of jobs that i could have, i mean if i want to make minimum wage or work evenings.

2.thunderbay this weekend? i would really love to go to thunderbay to visit my friend who is running a youth drop in center, mostly for northern students who are in thunderbay for school, and i have a free ride there and back

3. teach pioneer clubs(kids club at my church), work at inner city drop in center(the name of the place is illuding my mind), be a leader at youth group.
3b go to a church planting conference( i should rather say congress) in calgary in november

4. Go back to alaska in january for 2 years, be staff with YWAM help with schools do some mobile teams go back on outreaches to northern alaska.

I choose to be a impact on those around me, and sometimes that requires working hard at the church but most of the time it requires stepping out of the church and going out, with the blessing of the church and even with other people from the church. one thing that was told to me a word of the Lord was a caution for me to not just look at the obvious stages of my time here in winnipeg but to look deeper. I hope I am doing this faithfully.
I hope I am starting to step out of my box, I really want to be all that I can be through Christ and I think remaining relational is one of those things that I need to keep doing.

I could report on many things this summer of camp was spectacular, ive worked for my mom recently while she has done daycare for 18 kids at times, i helped lead my churches youth camp and then had a blast at my churches family camp, all while learning to trust the Holy Spirit.

my one prayer for me is that I will have the discernment to know when to lead by example strictly, and when to lead with my words and by example. ive experienced something i dont quite have a name for yet, pretty much i go to bed and when im trying to fal asleep i get like a whole sermon in my head or at least i find some sort of enlightenment to some issue that im dealing with. and funny thing is by the morning i really dont remember most of it, and so yesterday i decided enough was enough and finally wrote some of it down. well and previously i had gotten the whale illustration and wrote a letter to the church in savoonga. while its annoying to do this consistantly i think that it pays off, after all it may be wisdom that can change my whole thinking pattern.

well i should go off to bed.
God bless.