Saturday, November 29, 2008

drop your nets and run (rise up)

the trees are guiding me
the oceans are calling me
the flame is refining me
and I am gaining speed
so I can rise up (rise up)

but I am falling further
to the place You want me
so we can rise up (rise up)

fear no longer defines me
hope has taken hold of me
grace is falling on me
so we can rise up (rise up)

but I am falling further
to the place You want me
so we can rise up (rise up)

Thursday, November 27, 2008

of dread and dreams

Rant #'s 2, 4, and 7 of the day all combined:
I hate the internet, with travel websites, and youtube taking the top hatred levels. so i am trying to book a flight to homer, alaska. as i have figured out homer isnt a very popular destination so there arent alot of flights there no problem i figured it out and there is at least one flight to homer from anchorage a day so ive been looking at plane tickets for a while, wish i would have gotten my tickets a while ago as they were cheaper but oh well ill pay the extra amount. now here is where the hate starts, i got to book my flight and pretty much every flight i click give me this same messege "We're sorry. Due to changes in airline availability, the fare for your selected trip is no longer available. We have adjusted the fares for all affected flights. The fare for your selected trip is now $ 2360 total. See below." and i get this same thing for pretty much all the flights except for one, it costs about $100 more than the others and thats not a huge probelm but it really ticks me off. oh and why does it take 20 hours to fly to alaska with almost half of it being sitting in airports like seriously. luggage fees dont even get me started on luggage fees 15 bucks for the first bag 25 for the second what is that. thats what i get for flying with united.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

alaska or bust

I'm accepted to ywam alaska homer- arctic mercy!

it starts january 1st so thats like 6 weeks which is craazzy.

I am so pumped to be attending a DTS (disciple training school), it will be a life changing experience.

as to those who say im crazy to go to alaska in winter, mean temperature for anchorage( about 5 hours north but costal and pretty much the same im hoping) alaska in january -9 , mean temperature for winnipeg in january -17 so now whos crazy.

thank you for your prayers , and continued prayer


Sunday, November 16, 2008


I'm kinda fascinated about dreams, mostly just weird dreams. Both dreams dreamt while awake giving some strong purpose to your life, and dreams of the sleep.

I find it interesting that both our fears and our hopes can be explored in a dream. Some people have visions in there dreams, something that will happen, and some dreams are complete halucinations and really have no bearing on anything. dreams can be recurring, these can be the most terrorizing if they arent good dreams. theres so much about dreams that is just weird.

I have alot of weird dreams, lots of dreams that make me sad, lots of dreams that i dont remember anything but the emotions I was feeling, some dreams that i have a hard time figuring out if it was a dream or reality, used to have alot of dreams about work.

recently i have had 2 bad dreams that are somewhat similar in a sense, both with my teeth falling out, which as i just searched dreams is a common dream. first I will tell the dreams and then i will say what the internet says that the teeth falling out means.

first dream: It occurs in a hot tub, not a regular hot tub but one that fits like 30 people, may have been hot springs, i start losing my teeth sometime before i get in the hot tub, there are about 15 people from camp in this hot tub, i keep on feeling my bottom teeth get looser and looser and some snap off, im not really worring about the physical appearance in the dream but am worried about having to go to a dentist. then some of the people start singing a song, which i dont remember the words it has nothing to do about my teeth but its a song that leaves me feeling emmbarrased cant remember the words, and thats the end of the dream.

second dream(more terrorizing): I am at a pool, my mom is there, there are kids I think her daycare kids, one of my moms daycare kids(1 year old) falls into the pool, sinks right to the bottom. i jump in the pool to rescue him though i cant get past the surface of the water, i scramble up to take another dive, same thing i am unable to break the plane of water, like i am floating some point in this struggle my teeth all start to get loose and fall out, i scramble up to dive in , i do this like 4 times all a failure, eventually i am able to break the surface of the water and save this kid, though i felt the full emotion of the struggle to save this kid.

now heres what the website says is a biblical explanation of the teeth falling out..

"A scriptural interpretation for bad or falling teeth indicate that you are putting your faith, trust, and beliefs in what man thinks rather than in the word of God. The bible says that God speaks once, yea twice in a dream or a vision in order to hide pride from us, to keep us back from the pit, to open our ears (spiritually) and to instruct and correct us."

i often wake up in the middle of a dream and go back to sleep with the intention of finishing that dream and often i do finish the dream. thats what i find weird. dreams arent all random and it seems as though sometimes you can control your dreams.

one time about 7 years ago i had a dream that i died, there was a hold up at a dollar store and i played hero and got shot thats when i woke up, and thought i was dead, walked around my house thinking i was dead. took about 5 minutes to come to the conclusion that i wasnt dead.

earlier this year i had a dream that i hijacked a oreo truck and licked out the insides of all the oreos

interesting fact: in the 1915s to 1950's half of people in the states only dreamt in black and white

I had a recurring dream that i had for years and years probably from age 8-16 that cant really be explained other than as a tetris game, though it was more horizontal, colours, patterns, and emotions all combined into one dream that often left me very confused when i woke up, and i probably have had that dream like 30 times. same patterns some patterns meant good and some patterns meant bad.

in conclusion dreams are weird

i want you to comment with your weirdest dream


Monday, November 3, 2008

year in review part 2

lets try to get back at this..

Got home at 8 in the morning after being up for like 28 hours except for the couple hours of parking lot sleep. pretty much passed out as soon as I got home and slept for a few hours, went to a beaver creek bible camp staff reunion either that day or the day after. oh by the way i didnt shower the whole time i was tree planting so it was from like saturday to next monday with out shower or shave hahaha. I lost 15 lbs within that month of sickness, which if you know me, really isnt good, so I had to make up some weight, i gained 10 lbs a week for the next two weeks. I had a few weeks of good rest and went back to red river soils for a month, really felt God calling me out of my shell and i started talking to the people at work a little more, had a conversation with one guy about biblical conspiracy, guess he watched davinci code or something. took a week off before i left for camp went on a personal quest into the woods for myself from monday to tuesday with my canoe and me, I really had alot of personal stuff to get through before I left for camp and figured i should do it alone. I (accidentally) left my tent at home so i slept(not really) wrapped in a tarp to try to get the mosquitos at bay, but they buzzed so loud that i heard them buzzing even when they wernt there.

Got home, found out my dad was in the hospital with a pulmonary embolism which is blood clots in the lungs and which equalled death if he had gone to the hospital any later. it was a weird week, i wasnt sure how to feel, i spent quite a bit of the week at the hospital. left to go to staff camp at beaver creek bible camp on that friday.

im going to leave camp out and talk about it some other time.

Got home from camp took two weeks off to figure a few things. got a job doing renovations with my friend scott's old boss and have learned a lot from that and am planning on doing it until january. throughout this time i have been trying to let God work through me and show me where he wants me next and at first he was showing me that i should go with ywam and do a dts(dicipleship training school) south africa and then visas wouldnt have worked out for that so i checked for other ones and spain was the next one that was set appon my heart, and now alaska is my final destination (God willing) I think God showed me spain because he wanted me to get my best friend jeremiah interested in going out and doing something, and now he plans on going to spain.

camp review and
Why alaska to come soon