Saturday, September 27, 2008

its been a while

I think if I blogged more often it would be easier but as I already spent too much time on the computer usually doing nothing im not sure I can spend more time blogging, I guess I could spend less time on facebook.

Ok where to start, I don't really know where to start but here it goes...
I have been very busy in the past couple of days with my good friend Michael and Ashley's wedding that was yesterday, but before I go any further with that story I should probably talk about Jeremiah's health situation. Ok so tuesday night me michael and jeremiah are hanging out jeremiah complains about naseau he thinks he has food poisoning, well i wont go into the detail details but he goes to the hospital at 3 in the morning of wednesday, doesnt see a doctor for about 4 hours, well ill skip to the end... he had a inflammed appendix and got emergency surgery to remove it it wednesday night, and is still recovering from it, got out of the hospital thursday afternoon, came to the ceremony of michaels wedding, we were both his groomsmen jeremiah stayed for most of the reception but was in a lot of pain and had to leave.

today has been a very lazy day, i dont know what to say about it. i was supposed to drop off my tux before 6 but at about 6:10 i looked at the clock and said "crap" so i have to pay $20 late fee. I caught up on a few tv shows, and watched the capitals game online. this is my day so far and its 8:30pm.
and now im doing nothing and its not very fun
i could go for a fire right now, maybe a late night canoe, a warm summer night would be sweet too. i think im going to go play some guitar and drink some tea on my deck or something like that though. i might just end up watching a movie, i like hanging out with people and stuff but i have been too busy busy this past week that a night alone is alright.


Wednesday, September 17, 2008

dont know where to begin and even have less of a clue of where to end

well its been a while since my last post, and it seems like every day is a whole new set of occurrences, feelings, dreams, nightmares, etc.

In alot of my choices in the past year have been confident and bold and have dived headfirst into them, but sitting here deciding about going to spain with ywam has become something that has made me so unsure of myself, my intentions, my dreams, and God. my brain seems to go ten thousand miles a hour whenever i start to weigh my options and count the costs, i have some real soul searching to do about this I guess. Jeremiah is so sure of going and he will go without me but originally it was me going by myself and so now its a little weird talking to him about it because my decision changes every day.

i dont know how to feel about the last week or so, there was a lot of good times,visiting joel at sbc, a birthday party and a camp staff meeting. but also on the way to the camp staff dealio i got into a accident and now i have some decisions to make about my car and how much i like it and if i can get a new one (alot of money stuff) so far all i have to pay is $400 extra for my drivers but if i have to pay my deductible( if i decided to get a new car) its 200 more, they probably will total my car just because they like to total older cars. so i have decisions to make.

its kind of funny that this money stuff comes up, because me and sophia picked up janette and were sitting in my car waiting for jeremiah to show up and at first i was discussing how i was working very short hours and wasnt sure if i should quit my job or not then sophia offered to pay me gas money and i said i dont care about money janette piped in saying that i was just talking about deciding to quit a job over money which made me think a bit. lets start off with saying that i am 100% mennonite, i think that my statement "i dont care about money" is only half true. when it comes to making the most i can make without big compromises, pinching my pennies, not paying more than i have to, general stewardship of Gods money I care about money. when it comes to stuff i cant control, missed income from volunteering, friends paying me back, i dont really care about money. that being said i still think subconsciously i worry about it.

ive had a really good time with some people who i dont get to see all the time but have seen quite a bit lately especially my dearest germanized cousin dayna who has been a real encouragement and also had alot of fun being crazy with you even though it was mostly just you being crazy haha.

please pray for me as im making alot of decisions, i hope some things fall into place easily but i know that alot of it will take effort and me stepping out of the boat.

grace and peace

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

God's not safe. but he is good.

this past weekend my church had family camp. it was at turtle mountain bible camp, which is south west manitoba. I had a really good time, didnt get alot of sleep, learned a bit more about God, did some wakeboarding.

I was going to write about what the speaker was talking about but now i think im just going to talk about a few personal interactions.

As i have written in my blog I was thinking of going to ywam in spain this coming february. Jeremiah is now really wanting to come with me now so i think we will do it together, we prayed about it alot saturday evening. i had emailed them a couple times like 3 weeks ago and they finaly decided to email me back on monday with some great information. im a little heartbroken though, if we go to do a dts in spain it is over at the end of july which pretty much means that there is only a possibility of being at camp for one week.

saturday night we decided we wanted to go sleep in a nearby farmers field under the stars because it was nice out and there werent any bugs, so me, jeremiah, and scott penner slept out there. so we were inbetween swaths lying under the stars with a lighting storm far off in the north( it was a really beautiful moment). jeremiah was pretty much asleep almost right aways but me and scott chatted for a while, wondering how people could put God in a box and discussing how we put God in a box too. it was kinda funny, i was so tired and i started rambling a bit and kept on saying stuff that made sense in my head but it definatly didnt make sense anywhere else. we went to bed and it was good, i tend to be really out of it if i wake up in the middle of the night and that night was no different because when i woke up in the middle of the night i could swear that there was a tractor coming for us ready to make us into bales.

well the reason im home right now writing this blog would be because i cant get ahold of my boss and have no idea where im supposed to be right now, so im going to try to make the most out of this time off and go take a nap and wait for the phone to ring.