eyes light up.

what it takes to light up eyes.

having built some level of trust, having them know that we care for them. simply slipping a folded piece of paper into the hand of a unpretentious child telling them to put that folded piece of paper into their pocket without reading the simple words on them. turn the lights off, they can barely make each other out in the darkness... a moment of chaos... this is life without God, living in sin. "you can take out your piece of paper now" brings the focus back a little bit. "read it" brings the chaos back. click, the piercing rays of light from the flashlight seem like they should be making more noise than the kids, fortunately I'm there to call them towards the light to read the words God has written for them. they seem interested in the flashlight for a while but what they are really looking for is the lights to turn back on, despite how much fun it is to scream and run around in the dark. God is the light, we sit in a semi circle and read our simple truths. "God loves me" "God has a plan for me" "if God is for me who can be against me" "Jesus died so i can live". they are so much more than words, especially for kids who are honestly looking for hope, and honestly not finding it anywhere else. if those words stop when the sound waves end perhaps they enter your head they can be burned away with apathy. but however hot the fire of apathy it produces no light, the fire in most of the kids eyes that I saw burned so bright that even if it was just for a moment it melted my heart.

this is all here at home kids from the community who came to pioneer clubs
the harvest is plentiful

chad

traveling

In one sense we are always traveling
And traveling as if we do not know where we are going
In another sense we have already arrived
We cannot arrive at the perfect possession of love in this life
And that is why we are traveling and traveling in this darkness
But we already possess love by grace
And therefore in that sense we have arrived
And are dwelling in that light
But Oh! How far are you and I go to
find that love in whom we have arrived
- Thomas Merton

blood, its in you to live... oh wait i think the slogan says give

well after having not given blood for almost 2 years, I went and gave again. I didnt realize it had been that long, i had been once in that time but my iron was too low. Something about giving blood I just really like, I think its know that I am contributing to life. Maybe the weird concept of thinking that something inside of me will go inside of someone else is what intrigues me. anyways its fun to give blood so do it, get past your fear and do it. think of what that blood might be do for someone, think of your friend who is battling cancer, think of what would happen if no one gave blood.
I'm B+, what are you.
chad

what ive been working on lately

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KXkCXdjeCQ8 this is the video with music done by the churches on st lawrence island. the song is in siberian yupik

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J5CgJ5rYCB8 this is the song i think goes best with it but its hardcore music

prayer, open doors, know grace act grace

^{Colossians 4
2}Devote yourselves to prayer, being watchful and thankful. ³And pray for us, too, that God may open a door for our message, so that we may proclaim the mystery of Christ, for which I am in chains. ⁴Pray that I may proclaim it clearly, as I should. ⁵Be wise in the way you act toward outsiders; make the most of every opportunity. ⁶Let your conversation be always full of grace, seasoned with salt, so that you may know how to answer everyone.

Are you avoiding Gods power, saying hey God is bigger than me so He will do something about it if he wants. If so pray for open doors where ever you Go, pray for divine appointments pray for these things, pray for opportunities to be more like Jesus that is what we are trying to do right. I'm pretty sure Jesus didnt live a scared timid life of going to church on sunday (well saturday) but not living the rest of his life with His fathers works fully in mind and in action. He was in the hood, he was in the burbs he was everywhere, not with a come look at me attitude but with a I'm willing to die for you.

Look at the world as a opportunity, not as a burden. You arent by yourself, so you can live beyond your own boundries. call on the blood of Jesus, knowing He came to bring life, sending Holy Spirit to live with us(in us), because our Father loves us so much

so pray knowing who your Father is, knowing His love. open your eyes to open doors, you might have to knock on a few doors. Live more.

dont worry im preaching to myself mostly

chad

psalms 77

¹ I cried out to God for help;
I cried out to God to hear me.

² When I was in distress, I sought the Lord;
at night I stretched out untiring hands
and my soul refused to be comforted.

³ I remembered you, O God, and I groaned;
I mused, and my spirit grew faint.
Selah

⁴ You kept my eyes from closing;
I was too troubled to speak.

⁵ I thought about the former days,
the years of long ago;

⁶ I remembered my songs in the night.
My heart mused and my spirit inquired:

⁷ "Will the Lord reject forever?
Will he never show his favor again?

⁸ Has his unfailing love vanished forever?
Has his promise failed for all time?

⁹ Has God forgotten to be merciful?
Has he in anger withheld his compassion?"
Selah

¹⁰ Then I thought, "To this I will appeal:
the years of the right hand of the Most High."

¹¹ I will remember the deeds of the LORD;
yes, I will remember your miracles of long ago.

¹² I will meditate on all your works
and consider all your mighty deeds.

¹³ Your ways, O God, are holy.
What god is so great as our God?

¹⁴ You are the God who performs miracles;
you display your power among the peoples.

¹⁵ With your mighty arm you redeemed your people,
the descendants of Jacob and Joseph.
Selah

¹⁶ The waters saw you, O God,
the waters saw you and writhed;
the very depths were convulsed.

¹⁷ The clouds poured down water,
the skies resounded with thunder;
your arrows flashed back and forth.

¹⁸ Your thunder was heard in the whirlwind,
your lightning lit up the world;
the earth trembled and quaked.

¹⁹ Your path led through the sea,
your way through the mighty waters,
though your footprints were not seen.

²⁰ You led your people like a flock
by the hand of Moses and Aaron.

the end of what you would call an era

after being at camp Beaver Creek Bible Camp for the past 12 years at least one week a summer but recently being staff for 15 weeks over the past 4 summers, it was time to say "goodbye" with a hopeful "see you later" attached. God really prompted me to let go, move forward all in one moment right during our reunion on saturday. there is so much that I could say about camp, it was where I became a Christian, it's where so much truth was shed on my life, it has been a place of learning about God and about myself. it has been a spiritual gate for me, an entrance into my loving fathers arms, a place of continued relationships. God is so good, and he is definitely at work at bcbc, i praise God for the people whom he has set there who have been willing to be instruments of His love, grace and power.

there was one moment that it just hit me that i wasnt going to be back next year, thats when i realized i needed to find a high place to pray from and climbed aboard the roof of the boathouse to pray.

i dont feel like typing too much so ill just give a short outlook/ update

I am planning on going back up to alaska in january for at least 2 year coming home for christmas in between, I am going to be staff with YWAM. some of the things i could be doing would be helping lead a school (a DTS) doing mobile trips (road trip/ mini outreaches) we are going to the olymipics in febuary as a outreach, my heart is still for the northern alaska/ arctic so as soon as i can i want to be up there. as for right now I am working, trying to raise my funds for these next years. also working at the church helping lead youth group and leading a class of pioneer clubs.
right now its 9:30 on a saturday night, i spent 4 hours working serving at a wedding for a youth fundraiser and now i am tired and wanting to go to bed..